I am mortified.
This evening, on Twitter, after I posted the last Blog, I began chatting to a woman my age. She explained that she had been struggling with similar issues to me since she was 2-years-old and suggested that we support one another. I was so happy that I cried as I thanked her. She asked if I had a Myspace account. I do, but I wanted to remain anonymous, so I created a new account so that we can talk more. I was very excited and relieved to have somebody to chat to tonight, as I am so worried about my first visit to the Psychologist tomorrow morning.
When I found this woman’s profile, I noticed that all of her Myspace friends had pictures of very skinny girls showing their bodies as their profile pictures. She then messaged me and told me the most shocking thing; she told me that she was part of a ‘Pro-Ana’ group on Myspace. She confirmed that ‘Pro-Ana’ means Pro-Anorexia. I had to read those words over many times, as I could not believe my eyes. How can someone, claiming to support those with Eating Disorders, offer to help so many young girls and women and then attract them to be a part of a group, which could encourage people to put their lives at risk? I felt nauseous when I read the message and I still feel queasy now. How can they sleep at night?
Before learning any more about this growing cult, I blocked her and I never want to hear from her again. I am appalled at the sinister sect and wish I knew how to report them. It was probably the last thing that I needed tonight. If I was a young girl, like many on her friends list, I would have been less shrewd to such an offer. That really worries me. It is definitely an insight into a world I would not have ever imagined existed.